Figuring out what you want to do with your life can be quite an overwhelming process… So far. I have failed at figuring it all out.
These past weeks have been me thinking on the future for hours at a time… What do I want to do? What can I do? College? No College? Get married? or Maybe I’ll just be single for the rest of my life with a cat hoarding disorder. These are all very rational questions whether we’d like to admit it or not.
Today, I went to the local community college to check out the opportunities I would have there. I came home the the conclusion of wanting to major in Film or graphic design (It’s all kind of artsy); it will probably change tomorrow though when I decide to live on the beaches of Hawaii with nothing but a Volkswagen van and an old no-namer guitar. I’ll let myself pretend like I know what I want for today, because I like the thought of knowing I can dream. My life has been built upon me dreaming and it has worked out thus far, I’d say.
Dream Big. Or it’s kind of pointless…
With Love and Confusion,
This week in my life…
Lots has been going down. I have had the opportunity to work on some of my songs and revise them as far as the instrumental parts go. It really has been an exciting process to be able to see my music come together!
Also, My music video “Unconditional” was posted a week ago on TWLOHA’s official tumblr page. It was so amazing to see all the responses to my video.. I feel like maybe I can touch peoples lives in the smallest way through that song. It’s a humbling thing to know through you, God is using you to affect people’s lives, yet really it’s not you at all.
I thank you all for your love and support.
It’s the day to day things that make living worth while..
I honestly can’t tell you how much it’s just the little things that keep me going… whether its talking non-sense to friends or just sitting alone in my bedroom. Its the little things that I love.. My life has been built upon the little moments and I continue to tell myself it’s also the little moments that count; The things that shape who I am.
The future is a beautiful prospect, but also the past is a certain sort of wonderful, in it’s self. No matter the tragedies, it still has taught us to be who we are. I am really not sure, to be quite honest, why I was feeling the need to write a post about this subject, but I think it’s something that has been on my heart. I am so thankful about the small moments in the day, the little things people do, and the simple smiles people give, that have changed my life for the better.
I am so thankful for the support I have and the life that has been given to me though I am not deserving of such a wonderful circumstance.
Its the little things.
January 5th, 2012
I hope you had a good holiday season! I quite enjoyed mine. Filled with lots of friends and family. I got to spend my New Years with all my friends which was awesome!
Anyway… lots has happened over this nice, little winter break. Before the break, we sent out my music video “Unconditional” to some anti-depression organizations to see if they would consider using it for one of their ads. Last night we got an email from the organization To Write Love on Her Arms asking if they could use my video on their national website! I was so excited to see the email! I have always liked TWOLHA and what it stood for. It really focuses on suicide and depression which is something I have dealt with in my own life and also something I feel like has been put on my heart. I am really excited to support TWOLHA with my music and feel so blessed to be able to share my own story through my music on their website.
I want to thank Greg, from a Nashville record label, that encouraged us to go national with this video.
In addition to that.. I am also starting to record my newest songs If Only, Stay, Breaking Point, My World in Poetry, Since you and Almost Girl, next week. So, quite exciting (:
Life has been entertaining trying to balance a part-time job, school work, ice hockey, and music, but God has it all figured out so I’m not too worried about it. (:
Hope you all have a fantastic week!
Welcome to my Music Site. I am Jael Johnson; A fresh face to the Country music world, I would say. I am fifteen years old and live in Kalispell, Montana. The genre I write and sing within is mainly new country and acoustic pop.
I like music a lot, Diet Coke, Traveling and Taylor Swift. I’m kind of a dreamer.. it just sort came to me at an early age that I could escape the concrete-ness of reality by pretending I was something or somewhere else. Pretending was kind of the building blocks of what I am today. I always dreamt of being a singer or something crazy like that… I guess thats what has given me the drive to pursue music with such determination. A dream of a child. Although no one really thought I could make it anywhere, and I myself had doubts…but, my music career seems to be unveiling itself in front of me as I watch from afar…absolutely breathless.
I think that I started singing at a young age… wrote my first song when I was about four years old; it was called “Copper Pot Ponies” it was so legit. All through my childhood, I used my music to express my heart and to prove to people that they were wrong about me. Especially when I was young, I was made fun of quite a lot; I always thought that I was way different than the other girls. I found through time that music was away to show people who I am in such a beautiful way that there was no chance for them to make fun of me for it. Within music, I could be different, but in a completely wonderful way.
When I hit the about 13 years old, I started to write about love and the feeling of being in love, yet still going unnoticed by the boy. It’s an awkward predicament that always tends to happen to me. Since the age of 13, I have also been able to experience heartbreak, which has been the foundation of some of my most well known songs. Don’t get me wrong, getting my heart broken sucked, but I am also glad that it happened also. Through the pain, it has made me stronger not only emotionally, but also as a songwriter and musician. I often look back on my old love songs and think about how times have changed. They have kept a record of my life.
Well, there is a little intro, I guess. Hope you enjoy my music and videos. (: